Saturday, September 11, 2010

How much more?

Nate has lost his job in Oct. of last year and he applies to at least 3 jobs a day, so it's not like there isn't any jobs out there. They are just not hiring my husband. Is this the life that we are meant to have? We cannot take care of our kids and we are having another one. How depressing to know that your kids need jeans and you have no money to even go to the D.I. to get any. We decided that if we wanted Heavenly Father's blessings, we needed to do our part. We started paying tithing again(which is very hard to do when you have no money). We started praying and reading scriptures as a family more, making it more of a habit, having family home evening...etc. So far, what I'm looking at is we are still where we were months ago and having to consider renting our home(if someone will rent it, we can't even sell our treadmill, so to get someone to rent...I don't know)and live with hopefully Nate's family. This is not where I saw our lives. Do you know how much it hurts when your kids want to do something and you can't or when you go to the check out to pay for a $4 item and your debit card is declined? It sucks. I'm trying to stay positive, but week after week after month after month it starts to wear on you. Poor Nate thinks he's not good enough but the kicker is if he was given the chance, no one would work harder or do a better job.