Long Time

It's been a long time since i wrote. A lot has happened.We still can't pay for our house. But surprisingly, I'm not as bummed as before. Nate has been looking for jobs, and I found a job. I work at Gardner Village, in a boutique called Bewitched. It has everything you need to be a witch and tons of fun stuff for kids. I really like it and I like the people I work with and work for. I would be bummed about not being able to pay for the house if we hadn't been trying everything we could. So now, we are going to try to sell it. Marlene(I'd like to call her my best friend) is going to do that for us. I appreciate all that she and her husband Russell has done for us. Another one of my friends, Kristina has done a lot for me. She has offered support,comforting words and even to watch my kids while I am at work.If you know my kids, that makes her a saint. She is going through a trying time right now and I hope I can be half the friend that she has been to me. I have two other friends that has been there for me too, Lally and Cammie. I have the greatest group of girls and I love them. I couldn't make it through all the crap that I have been going through without them. So here is a shout out to all my sistas.I love you girls.

who wants to be debbie downer?

My last 2 posts have been such downers. I'm tired of worrying about things I can't control. I have spent countless hours laying in bed not being able to get up or take a shower or cook dinner. Those hours have been wasted. I want to say right here right now, NO MORE!!! I want to be a tigger.I want to be the girl I used to be,that confident girl that could do anything she set her mind too. I have lost her over the years. Wound up on anti depressants. I say screw that girl and reclaim my life. So here's to all the eeyores,LET'S BE TIGGERS!!!

If you thought things couldn't get worse...

We found out that Nate's work laid off all except for Nate and another guy. His hours have been cut and we are way short now. I'm afraid we are going to lose our home. We have no idea what to do. Emma has to have $1000 worth of dental work, the kids need uniforms for school and clothes period. Things are really bad now. I have to thank Heavenly Father that Nate still has a job. I feel really bad for the guys that lost theirs. I am looking for a job now. I haven't worked in 10 years. This is gonna be challenging. I have no education and no experience. But I know there is a plan(there has to be right). Heavenly Father doesn't give us more than we can handle. There is a solution we just have to be in tune to the spirit to find it.

Despair

What do you do when you are in so much debt that if your kid needs to go the doctor,dentist,or needs clothes you are screwed? I don't know how we got here. We have totally screwed ourselves. We have no one to blame but us. I am a horrible mother for thinking about the now instead of the future. I really don't know what we are gonna do. Today was so bad that I fell on the floor begging Heavenly Father to forgive my bad judgements and please help our family. I feel despair and hopelessness. I pray with all my might that my children will be taken care of.

Hair

I have had alot of hairstyles over the years.>
It just keeps getting shorter. The only thing left is to shave it off. Since that isn't an option I think I will grow it out now.

Noah's Birthday

Noah had his birthday party at the pool and then we came home and had pizza and cake and icecream. I made his cake like a skate ramp. He is now a big 8 year old.

Ragnar

I ran my first Ragnar Relay and I loved it. I want to thank Nate for putting up with my whining and complaining during training. I am so proud of myself for doing it. I feel like I accomplished something great. Back in March, I couldn't run 1 mile much less 13 and that is exactly what I did. My goal for next year is to run one of the harder legs. My friend Marlene is wanting me to run a half marathon in August so guess what I am doing? Training for that. Here are some pics of the race.