CHANGES

A lot has happened this past year. A lot of changes. We were inactive for about 3 months, Nate lost his job, we had some marital issues and I got a full time job. The kids have had to do a lot of adjusting. And if I do say so myself,they have done a great job. Our family is stronger than ever and I have to say it is because of our trials this past year. Our families have been wonderful and we love them very much. We have the greatest friends anyone could ask for. Heavenly Father has truly blessed us. We may not have money right now but what we do have out weighs that ten fold. So here is to a better year, may Nate get a job....please.

Church

I think I'm inactive.

Long Time

It's been a long time since i wrote. A lot has happened.We still can't pay for our house. But surprisingly, I'm not as bummed as before. Nate has been looking for jobs, and I found a job. I work at Gardner Village, in a boutique called Bewitched. It has everything you need to be a witch and tons of fun stuff for kids. I really like it and I like the people I work with and work for. I would be bummed about not being able to pay for the house if we hadn't been trying everything we could. So now, we are going to try to sell it. Marlene(I'd like to call her my best friend) is going to do that for us. I appreciate all that she and her husband Russell has done for us. Another one of my friends, Kristina has done a lot for me. She has offered support,comforting words and even to watch my kids while I am at work.If you know my kids, that makes her a saint. She is going through a trying time right now and I hope I can be half the friend that she has been to me. I have two other friends that has been there for me too, Lally and Cammie. I have the greatest group of girls and I love them. I couldn't make it through all the crap that I have been going through without them. So here is a shout out to all my sistas.I love you girls.

who wants to be debbie downer?

My last 2 posts have been such downers. I'm tired of worrying about things I can't control. I have spent countless hours laying in bed not being able to get up or take a shower or cook dinner. Those hours have been wasted. I want to say right here right now, NO MORE!!! I want to be a tigger.I want to be the girl I used to be,that confident girl that could do anything she set her mind too. I have lost her over the years. Wound up on anti depressants. I say screw that girl and reclaim my life. So here's to all the eeyores,LET'S BE TIGGERS!!!

If you thought things couldn't get worse...

We found out that Nate's work laid off all except for Nate and another guy. His hours have been cut and we are way short now. I'm afraid we are going to lose our home. We have no idea what to do. Emma has to have $1000 worth of dental work, the kids need uniforms for school and clothes period. Things are really bad now. I have to thank Heavenly Father that Nate still has a job. I feel really bad for the guys that lost theirs. I am looking for a job now. I haven't worked in 10 years. This is gonna be challenging. I have no education and no experience. But I know there is a plan(there has to be right). Heavenly Father doesn't give us more than we can handle. There is a solution we just have to be in tune to the spirit to find it.

Despair

What do you do when you are in so much debt that if your kid needs to go the doctor,dentist,or needs clothes you are screwed? I don't know how we got here. We have totally screwed ourselves. We have no one to blame but us. I am a horrible mother for thinking about the now instead of the future. I really don't know what we are gonna do. Today was so bad that I fell on the floor begging Heavenly Father to forgive my bad judgements and please help our family. I feel despair and hopelessness. I pray with all my might that my children will be taken care of.

Hair

I have had alot of hairstyles over the years.>
It just keeps getting shorter. The only thing left is to shave it off. Since that isn't an option I think I will grow it out now.

Noah's Birthday

Noah had his birthday party at the pool and then we came home and had pizza and cake and icecream. I made his cake like a skate ramp. He is now a big 8 year old.

Ragnar

I ran my first Ragnar Relay and I loved it. I want to thank Nate for putting up with my whining and complaining during training. I am so proud of myself for doing it. I feel like I accomplished something great. Back in March, I couldn't run 1 mile much less 13 and that is exactly what I did. My goal for next year is to run one of the harder legs. My friend Marlene is wanting me to run a half marathon in August so guess what I am doing? Training for that. Here are some pics of the race.

Mill B

The girls and I went up Big Cottonwood Canyon with my friend Cammy and her 2 boys. We had a good time. The weather was great. It has been weird here. Normally it is really hot by now. It has been in the high 60's low 70's. It has been raining alot. We actually had some hail and snow the other day. I'm not complaining at all. It's nice to be outside when the weather is like this. Anyway, we went on a little walk and here are some pics.

Park

Daybreak has this amazing park. However, it is on the other side of Daybreak where all the cool stuff is which sucks! Anyway the kids love going there and I quite enjoy it .

Emma's birthday

Emma's birthday was in April. I finally got my pictures downloaded. She wanted a Tinkerbell birthday so that is what we gave her.
There was alot of people there. She had a great time.

Skulls

I have finally been able to find a skull background for my blog. I love skulls. I have alot of stuff with skulls on it. I don't know what it is. I think they're pretty cool.

Updating

I really need to update my blog. Not alot going on. School is winding down. The kids will be home all summer this time. They will finally be going to a traditional school. Yipee!!! Nate's working hard as ever. I am still training for my race. It is in 2 weeks. I feel a little unprepared. I was not anticipating how hard it would be. I'm not a quitter but if I was... Just recently, when I run, my right knee gets so stiff I can barely bend it. Now that's after my first run. I have to run 2 more times after that. How on earth am I going to do it. I have 11 other girls that are depending on me. I am just gonna have to grin and bare it. Maybe walk it. I don't know. If I'm gonna try to run outside and see if that helps.

Louisa Eunice Porter 1925-2009

There was never a better woman on the face or the Earth. She loved the gospel,her children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. Even though I married into the family, I have always felt like I was her grandchild. She taught me how important tradition is and what the most important thing in life is...FAMILY. So we love you grandma and will miss you very much.

Family

Last Sunday my grandpa died. He was 90 years old. My mom and I flew to Mississippi Saturday to be with him and to be there for the funeral. It was the first time in a long time that I have seen most of my mom's side of the family. Here are some pics.
Starting in the back: Debbie, Cindy. Next row: Karen, Gina and Melinda. Front row: me, Kayla, Courtney and Erica
This is my Aunt Becky. We share the same birthday.
My Aunt Becky and Uncle Johnnie
Me and My mom
My cousin Michelle and her husband Anthony and son Robbie
My cousin Ashley, her husband Scooter and sons, Josh, Corey and Chris
My cousin Dennis, his wife Julie and their kids,DJ and Mikella
Me and my cousin Greg

This is not all of my family. There is 7 brothers and 2 sisters. And pretty much all of their families were there. It was nice to be surrounded by family at that time. I will try to find a pic of my grandpa and get it on here soon.

Yea Emma

With all of my kids, I didn't force the potty training issue. I let them wear pull ups until they turned three. When their birthday rolled around, it was panty or underwear time. It worked pretty well with the oldest 3. Even before they turned 3 they would at least sit on the toilet. My youngest,Emma,hasn't wanted anything to do with it. She wouldn't even sit on the potty. Well, her birthday is coming up so we decided to start telling her "When you are three, no more pull ups. You get to wear big girl panties." So Saturday we took her to the store and she got to pick out her panties. She has been carrying them around with her everywhere. And guess what, Monday she started using the potty!! Only 2 accidents in 2 days. Sheis no longer my baby.

Easter Party

This year we went to Nate's sister's house for Easter. We always have so much fun when we are there. Here are some pics of all of us having a great time.